Today was such a day, while minding my business, doing my job at the 9-5, I was suddenly reeling due to an epiphany.
In the past few months, I feel that I have finally started to hit my stride (pun intended) not only in my running pursuits, but also in my extra-curricular life - goals and desires that I aim to meet, to please me. Reduce stress, run, read, make time for creativity, finish abandoned projects, and pursue my heart's happiness and desires.
Tonight, I finished putting a lamp together that I purchased a few months ago. Wednesday, I finished crocheting a blanket that I started in college... many years ago. But today, when frustration was clouding my brain, wondering why it is that I'm not getting what I want out of my career, I had a sudden realization. I am not putting energy into what I want. I am putting energy into what I think others will want from me. Of course I'm not attracting what I want! I am not actively pursuing it!
I immediately realized I needed to take responsibility for my career momentum and put it back into my own hands. I know what I need to do, but not necessarily how to proceed. Sometimes the most difficult part of the process is just taking that first step, not knowing whether you are at the edge of a precipice above a canyon and sure demise, or above a clean lake on a hot day, refreshingly cool and welcome when you finally make that jump.
So here I am, at my computer screen, typing away at the blog where I have become a runner, a writer, and where I get to share myself with the unknown. And hopefully, put something positive out into the world, attracting more of that good to me.
My new plan of attack? I am going to make a schedule for myself after work hours. I schedule each hour down to the minute while I am at work, why am I not as structured in my own time? I need to plan time to do the things that bring me joy. So, my friends, you can expect to hear more from me (as this writing brings me great happiness), and not just about running (although, recently I was advised that everything is related to running - thanks, Grampa!). I plan to share my insights, learnings, musings, and goal achievements with you. In part, I do this to keep myself accountable (such as the 2 for 20 for 22 Post did for my running habit), but I also would like to encourage you to share your battles, wins, and lessons learned.
How do you attract your dreams into reality?
What challenges have you recently overcome?